sad renovations

we've practically finished our room, just need to finish painting the door and window, and any little patches we find didnt get a second coat.

so now we're starting on the critters room. well.. soon-to-be-the-critter's-room. we've torn off as much wallpaper as we can without stripper, all my sister's stuff is out, its now just furniture, a few paper scraps, and his clothes.

a couple of the paintbrushes didnt like the paint, so we went to bunnings today to get new ones, and while we were there, we had a look at paint colours, trying to decide what we like, and what we want to do with his room. if he was older i'd let him help with the decision, but as it is, he just says 'YES!' to everything we ask him, so he's not much use. we picked out some colours, bought some little sample pots, and when critter and i have finished lunch, i'm going to go scrub some patches of the wall and paint them with the sample, make sure we actually like it.

its definitely important to do this - with our room we decided we didnt like one of the colours we had picked out, and got a different one that was just SO much better. colours look different in large patches on the wall than they do in a little square of paper, and the light in your house will almost certainly be different to the light in the paint shop, and it can make SUCH a huge different to the colours.


anyway... doing our room was fun. i am SO happy. it looks great, it looks new, we have new furniture, and its now OUR room. doing my son's room is going to be difficult.

in april i lost a baby. i wasnt even certain i was pregnant until i lost it, and because of that, i have no 'proof' that i was. i never had a chance to take a pregnancy test, and i never saw a doctor about it. but i was anywhere from 1 to 4 weeks late (my cycles are all kinds of crazy), and i NEVER have food related nausea, sore breasts and an increased need to use the loo.. except when i was pregnant. so no matter what anyone says about not being able to be sure there was a baby, i sure do KNOW there was a baby thankyou very much.

and now there isnt. and its making it hard to do my son's room. i cant help thinking that i should be doing this room for another baby, as well as my critter. that we should be at the point where we're getting new baby furniture (we had second hand stuff and its falling apart now), telling our son about the new baby, that we're fixing up this room so he and the baby have a nice place to sleep.... but i cant do that.

i can just be slightly comforted by the fact that my baby is in SUCH a better place now, and doesnt have to worry about renovations.

but i still wish i was doing this for my dear one as well.