seen this a couple places and since im totally lacking in motivation right now, here we go.
1. He’s sitting in front of the TV: what is on the screen?
anything. probably news, or some scifi show like babylon 5.
2. You’re out to eat. What kind of dressing does he get on his salad?
honey-mustard.
3. What is one food he doesn’t like?
pasta. lasagna counts as pasta, macaroni does not.
4. You go out to the bar. What does he order?
some sort of beer. little creatures or hoegarden probably.
5. Where did he go to high school?
somewhere in the mojave desert in california.
6. What size shoe does he wear?
um... 10 i think. same as me. possibly he wears a 10 1/2?
7. If he was to collect anything, what would it be?
swords.
8. What is his favorite type of sandwich?
um... i dont know. ham/turkey/cheese/lettuce, or peanutbutter and jam, probably.
9. What would the Husband eat every day if he could?
oatmeal raisin cookies. i made some the other day. he asked me not to make any more because he eats them too fast and hes trying to lose weight.
10. What is his favorite cereal?
muesli. how boring is he?
11. What would he never wear?
pink. ive tried. he has worn a dress and makeup (and a very long wig) for halloween, and he let me put lots of little butterfly clips in his hair, but he wont wear pink.
12. What is his favorite sports team?
um.. i think the swannies. YAY!!! we'll make an aussie of him yet!
13. Who is his best friend?
hopefully me? but since i dont think it meant spouses, id say this one girl he's known since they were 12 or something. the only woman i know isnt a threat when he says 'i love you' to her.
14. What is something you do that he wishes you wouldn’t do?
tear my toenails off instead of clipping them. he doesnt mind the talking in my sleep though.. he thinks thats funny.
15. How many states has he lived in?
in australia? one. in the USA? three i think. and england also.
16. What is his heritage?
english (mother) and italian (father) mostly. also a little french i think. on both sides. he just looks italian though. my wog boy.
17. You bake him a cake for his birthday; what kind?
white chocolate cheesecake with raspberry goo on top.
18. Did he play sports in high school?
yes.. american football and basketball i believe.
19. What could he spend hours doing?
video games. internet. gardening. BBQ.
so thats the husband unit.
Tuesday 23 December 2008
Sunday 21 December 2008
thats what i like to hear
conversation this morning with the kid, while i wsa in the shower:
"mummy, are we going shopping today?"
"no sweetheart, we're going to go to church."
"CHURCH???????????? WOOHOO!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!"
and then he skipped out of the room whooping and clapping.
enthusiastic much?
"mummy, are we going shopping today?"
"no sweetheart, we're going to go to church."
"CHURCH???????????? WOOHOO!!!!! yippee!!!!!!!!!"
and then he skipped out of the room whooping and clapping.
enthusiastic much?
Monday 15 December 2008
blah.
lack of motivation overwhelming.
think ive got all the christmas presents sorted.
why is the kid not sleeping?
sun far too bright.
renal ultrasound on critter came back normal. no problems with my boy. yay.
do not want to do dishes.
forgot to hang out wash.
cant think of how to cook the chicken for dinner. probably go with honey soy..
blah.
think ive got all the christmas presents sorted.
why is the kid not sleeping?
sun far too bright.
renal ultrasound on critter came back normal. no problems with my boy. yay.
do not want to do dishes.
forgot to hang out wash.
cant think of how to cook the chicken for dinner. probably go with honey soy..
blah.
Wednesday 10 December 2008
its that time of year again
i need to make an appointment with my hairdresser. ive been putting it off. i cant just let my hair go raggedy for ever, but im dreading seeing her again. because its nearly christmas.
i havent been feeling so great the past few weeks. ive been snapping at people a lot, and ive been having trouble sleeping. i feel sad for no reason, and i just lack the motivation to DO anything. i was wondering if post natal depression had kicked in early, and then i realised. its nearly christmas.
christmas ahs always been a time of anticipation and excitement for me. the one time of year i WANT to get up a little earlier than usual, so the day lasts longer. seeing peoples faces as they unwrap the presents ive found for them. seeing their faces when THEY see how much i enjoy the presents theyve got for me. the beautiful heart-lifting christmas church service. TURKEY DINNER (i love turkey. id eat it all year). seeing family happy and joyful (for the most part) and the usually less antagonism than other get-togethers. and recently, my son, my little critterbug, so caught up in the excitement of things he doesnt quite understand yet, and the amazing crash and burn afterwards.
until last year. last year was a struggle. i dont remember much of christmas day. a few snippets of getting presents, and i think i managed to spill gravy on my clean white skirt.. the rest is a blur. there was something missing last year, and its still missing now. the addition of my giant belly is helping fill the void, but there will be a gap in my christmas for ever, i think. smaller each year perhaps, but there none the less.
last april i lost a baby. it would have been due around christmas day. last year, the baby was all i could think about. even when we painted critterbug's room that september, the excitement so evident in him (his own blue room! that he painted! and a BED!! with PIRATES ON THE SHEETS!!!!!!!!) wasnt enough to drown out the little voice in my head reminding me that there should have been a space left in the room for a cot, and a new set of drawers slowly being filled with baby clothes, waiting for december and the new baby.
and to top it all off, my hairdresser's first child was born last december. within a week or so of when i suspect i was due. every time i saw her, glowing and smiling and expanding, my heart broke a little. i was so happy for her, and so sad for me. and i was so angry at God. she hadnt wanted the baby, didnt think she was ready yet. she was taking precautions. she had even taken the morning after pill, and the baby had still stuck. why hadnt mine? what had gone wrong? why did she get to have a baby, and i only got to loose one?
im not so angry anymore, although it still hurts. if i had had that baby, i wouldnt be having this one. i would still be feeding the baby, and my baby-making-abilities last time didnt kick back in until the kid was about 15 months old (that surprised the doctor) - three months after he stopped feeding. theres also my husband. the chances of him agreeing to a third are very very slim. (not that he really agreed to this one. we have a habit of accidental conception.)
but seeing my hairdresser still hurts. seeing photos of her son, how big he is, how much hes growing. all the things i didnt get to see with mine. and seeing her now is going to be very difficult. her son turns one soon. mine would be having a birthday soon too. there should be extra presents under the tree in the other room. there should be extra time management needed to actually get my hair done.
its not as hard as last year. and next year will be easier again. spaceghost will be taking up most of my attention, i'm sure. and the year after that, there will be something else to fill a little of the gap.
but christmas will always be a little empty. now i really need those christmas day services i love so much.
i havent been feeling so great the past few weeks. ive been snapping at people a lot, and ive been having trouble sleeping. i feel sad for no reason, and i just lack the motivation to DO anything. i was wondering if post natal depression had kicked in early, and then i realised. its nearly christmas.
christmas ahs always been a time of anticipation and excitement for me. the one time of year i WANT to get up a little earlier than usual, so the day lasts longer. seeing peoples faces as they unwrap the presents ive found for them. seeing their faces when THEY see how much i enjoy the presents theyve got for me. the beautiful heart-lifting christmas church service. TURKEY DINNER (i love turkey. id eat it all year). seeing family happy and joyful (for the most part) and the usually less antagonism than other get-togethers. and recently, my son, my little critterbug, so caught up in the excitement of things he doesnt quite understand yet, and the amazing crash and burn afterwards.
until last year. last year was a struggle. i dont remember much of christmas day. a few snippets of getting presents, and i think i managed to spill gravy on my clean white skirt.. the rest is a blur. there was something missing last year, and its still missing now. the addition of my giant belly is helping fill the void, but there will be a gap in my christmas for ever, i think. smaller each year perhaps, but there none the less.
last april i lost a baby. it would have been due around christmas day. last year, the baby was all i could think about. even when we painted critterbug's room that september, the excitement so evident in him (his own blue room! that he painted! and a BED!! with PIRATES ON THE SHEETS!!!!!!!!) wasnt enough to drown out the little voice in my head reminding me that there should have been a space left in the room for a cot, and a new set of drawers slowly being filled with baby clothes, waiting for december and the new baby.
and to top it all off, my hairdresser's first child was born last december. within a week or so of when i suspect i was due. every time i saw her, glowing and smiling and expanding, my heart broke a little. i was so happy for her, and so sad for me. and i was so angry at God. she hadnt wanted the baby, didnt think she was ready yet. she was taking precautions. she had even taken the morning after pill, and the baby had still stuck. why hadnt mine? what had gone wrong? why did she get to have a baby, and i only got to loose one?
im not so angry anymore, although it still hurts. if i had had that baby, i wouldnt be having this one. i would still be feeding the baby, and my baby-making-abilities last time didnt kick back in until the kid was about 15 months old (that surprised the doctor) - three months after he stopped feeding. theres also my husband. the chances of him agreeing to a third are very very slim. (not that he really agreed to this one. we have a habit of accidental conception.)
but seeing my hairdresser still hurts. seeing photos of her son, how big he is, how much hes growing. all the things i didnt get to see with mine. and seeing her now is going to be very difficult. her son turns one soon. mine would be having a birthday soon too. there should be extra presents under the tree in the other room. there should be extra time management needed to actually get my hair done.
its not as hard as last year. and next year will be easier again. spaceghost will be taking up most of my attention, i'm sure. and the year after that, there will be something else to fill a little of the gap.
but christmas will always be a little empty. now i really need those christmas day services i love so much.
Friday 5 December 2008
because im booooooooooooooooooooored
survey a friend posted on myspace. some of the questions made me giggle, so heres my answers.
1. if your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
no... really????? so... thats why i keep feeling this little person inside me moving??????
2. Do you trust all of your friends?
to different degrees.
3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
he did for me, and i was willing to STAY overseas to be with him... yes. if he wanted to move, i would follow him anywhere.
4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yes, but we dont necessarily know what the reason is, and might never know.
5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
i can make 20.
6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
the one whos nearly finished becoming a doctor
7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
im already in love. im afraid of falling OUT.
8. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
no, not really
9. Whats your most favorite scar?
uh... what? i guess the one on my head that makes my hair grow oddly...
10. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
few weeks back, when i went to adelaide to visit my mummy.
11. What did the last text message you sent say?
something about being sorry for the bad day hubby was having, and how much i love him. im very very sad.
12. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
'the preferred sex' you mean blokes? intelligence. i cant stand idiots.
14. Fill in the blank:
I love: my family
15. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
keep this baby in for the next 2 months
16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
if he wasnt sitting next to me, my hubby.
17. How many kids do you want to have?
more than hubby will let me, which is probably good for my mental health.
18. Would you make a good parent?
well i hope i AM a good parent. the kid seems to think i am..
19. Where was your default picture taken?
doesnt count here. no picture.
20. Whats your middle name?
my grandmother's first name. im not telling you what it is.
21. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
how can he have SO MUCH energy, and why does my leg hurt.. am i really hungry? i just ate. my nails need cutting.
22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
mostly things to do with ex boyfriends. you dont need details.
23. Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding?
hubby's two best friends were. if we ever get round to doing the fancy church thing, im guessing my sister, and i dont know who hubby's best man would be.
24. What are you wearing right now?
so glad i didnt do this when i was eating breakfast.. um.. a linen skirt, and a tshirt that im very glad still fits. yay for knits! also the requisite underwear, a hair elastic, a necklace, but not my rings :(
25. Righty or Lefty?
righty
26. Best place to eat?
la botte d'oro. my absolute favourite restaurant, been going there for about 20 years or so. LOVE it. or on the couch with my family. its a toss-up.
27. Favorite jeans?
i no longer wear jeans, but most of mine came from jeans west, because other brands just dont fit right.
28. Favorite animal?
can i say my husband? never mind. cat.
29. Favorite juice?
toss up between apple&blackcurrant, and orange. i love them both.
30. Have you had the chicken pox?
yes. i was either 2 or 3, and it was just after christmas.
31. Have you had a sore throat?
i had such a bad sore throat i didnt eat and hardly drank for a week. i lost 5kg (11lb). have also had tonsillitis.
32. Ever had a bar fight?
i dont drink, and am rarely in bars. the worst fight ive ever had fullstop is when i hit my sister after she wouldnt stop telling me how bad a mother i was. because stopping your not-yet-walking-baby from falling out the door face first onto a concrete step by hooking your foot under him and pulling him back to safety constitutes kicking the baby.
33. Who knows you the best?
hubby.
34. Shoe size?
10
35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
used to have reading glasses, might need distance glasses now.. but they want to recheck my eyes when bublet is about 6months to see if they correct themselves - ie my blurry eyesight may be pregnancy related.
36. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
the cat is crazy. i have been damaged by him, yes.
37. Been to Mexico?
no
38. Did you buy something today?
no
39. Did you get sick today?
no
40. Do you miss someone today?
no
41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?
ive had an argument with my son, trying to get him to sit still and eat instead of bouncing all over his chair and the ground and kicking his table and rolling around like a lunatic..... does that count?
42. When is the last time you had a massage?
i have NO idea.
43. Last person to lay in your bed?
me. i was still asleep long after hubby got up to go for a run this morning.
44. Last person to see you cry?
hubby. he had a bad day, i said the wrong thing, he snapped at me, pregnancy hormones make me cry at everything.
45. What was the last TV show you watched?
in the night garden. shudder.
46. What are your plans for the weekend?
house cleaning, and putting up the christmas tree. and possibly christmas shopping. and i think hubby might be doing some gardening, depending on the weather. and also i need to wash the sheets if its not raining.
47. Who do you think will repost this?
uh.. no-one?
48. Who was the last person you hung out with?
critterbug.
49. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
id ask him if he'd lost his memory, since weve been married for nearly 4.5 years.....
1. if your doctor told you TODAY that you were pregnant, what would you say?
no... really????? so... thats why i keep feeling this little person inside me moving??????
2. Do you trust all of your friends?
to different degrees.
3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
he did for me, and i was willing to STAY overseas to be with him... yes. if he wanted to move, i would follow him anywhere.
4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yes, but we dont necessarily know what the reason is, and might never know.
5. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
i can make 20.
6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
the one whos nearly finished becoming a doctor
7. Are you afraid of falling in love?
im already in love. im afraid of falling OUT.
8. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
no, not really
9. Whats your most favorite scar?
uh... what? i guess the one on my head that makes my hair grow oddly...
10. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
few weeks back, when i went to adelaide to visit my mummy.
11. What did the last text message you sent say?
something about being sorry for the bad day hubby was having, and how much i love him. im very very sad.
12. What features do you find most attractive in the preferred sex?
'the preferred sex' you mean blokes? intelligence. i cant stand idiots.
14. Fill in the blank:
I love: my family
15. What is a goal you would like to accomplish in the near future?
keep this baby in for the next 2 months
16. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended time who would you call?
if he wasnt sitting next to me, my hubby.
17. How many kids do you want to have?
more than hubby will let me, which is probably good for my mental health.
18. Would you make a good parent?
well i hope i AM a good parent. the kid seems to think i am..
19. Where was your default picture taken?
doesnt count here. no picture.
20. Whats your middle name?
my grandmother's first name. im not telling you what it is.
21. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?
how can he have SO MUCH energy, and why does my leg hurt.. am i really hungry? i just ate. my nails need cutting.
22. If you could go back in time and change something, what would it be?
mostly things to do with ex boyfriends. you dont need details.
23. Who was or will be the maid of honor/ best man in your wedding?
hubby's two best friends were. if we ever get round to doing the fancy church thing, im guessing my sister, and i dont know who hubby's best man would be.
24. What are you wearing right now?
so glad i didnt do this when i was eating breakfast.. um.. a linen skirt, and a tshirt that im very glad still fits. yay for knits! also the requisite underwear, a hair elastic, a necklace, but not my rings :(
25. Righty or Lefty?
right
26. Best place to eat?
la botte d'oro. my absolute favourite restaurant, been going there for about 20 years or so. LOVE it. or on the couch with my family. its a toss-up.
27. Favorite jeans?
i no longer wear jeans, but most of mine came from jeans west, because other brands just dont fit right.
28. Favorite animal?
can i say my husband? never mind. cat.
29. Favorite juice?
toss up between apple&blackcurrant, and orange. i love them both.
30. Have you had the chicken pox?
yes. i was either 2 or 3, and it was just after christmas.
31. Have you had a sore throat?
i had such a bad sore throat i didnt eat and hardly drank for a week. i lost 5kg (11lb). have also had tonsillitis.
32. Ever had a bar fight?
i dont drink, and am rarely in bars. the worst fight ive ever had fullstop is when i hit my sister after she wouldnt stop telling me how bad a mother i was. because stopping your not-yet-walking-baby from falling out the door face first onto a concrete step by hooking your foot under him and pulling him back to safety constitutes kicking the baby.
33. Who knows you the best?
hubby.
34. Shoe size?
10
35. Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
used to have reading glasses, might need distance glasses now.. but they want to recheck my eyes when bublet is about 6months to see if they correct themselves - ie my blurry eyesight may be pregnancy related.
36. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
the cat is crazy. i have been damaged by him, yes.
37. Been to Mexico?
no
38. Did you buy something today?
no
39. Did you get sick today?
no
40. Do you miss someone today?
no
41. Did you get in a fight with someone today?
ive had an argument with my son, trying to get him to sit still and eat instead of bouncing all over his chair and the ground and kicking his table and rolling around like a lunatic..... does that count?
42. When is the last time you had a massage?
i have NO idea.
43. Last person to lay in your bed?
me. i was still asleep long after hubby got up to go for a run this morning.
44. Last person to see you cry?
hubby. he had a bad day, i said the wrong thing, he snapped at me, pregnancy hormones make me cry at everything.
45. What was the last TV show you watched?
in the night garden. shudder.
46. What are your plans for the weekend?
house cleaning, and putting up the christmas tree. and possibly christmas shopping. and i think hubby might be doing some gardening, depending on the weather. and also i need to wash the sheets if its not raining.
47. Who do you think will repost this?
uh.. no-one?
48. Who was the last person you hung out with?
critterbug.
49. If your significant other asked you to marry them TODAY what would you say?
id ask him if he'd lost his memory, since weve been married for nearly 4.5 years.....
buying stuff, and stuff
the christmas presents dilemma is beginning to overwhelm me. i have a couple things for hubby (what do you get for a guy who goes out and buys the ONLY thing you thought he wanted?) and im sure theres a bunch of stuff scattered around the house for the kid. we got something for my sister, and mum has given us a suggestion for her - the same perfume we buy her every year. boring, predictable, but at least its something she needs. the big dilemma is my dad, and still hubby.
dad well... this one is really tricky. for two reasons. 1) he's jewish, and therefor doesnt celebrate christmas, but i know he's going to get us something, so if i dont get him anything, i feel horrid. 2) WHAT DO I GET HIM???????? im NOT getting him another harmonica. he has a million of the things and they all sound awful. and i cant think of anything else. UGH.
hubby well.. ive got him a couple movies, and a book... and i dont know what else to do. do i need to do anything else? if it was just me, id say it was fine, but this is stuff from me, critter, and the as-yet-unborn-spaceghost (because it was just too brilliant to pass up). which makes it seem like really nothing at all. and i dont know what else to get him. UGH. cant get him a nice watch, because he was given one by dad a couple months back, and isnt really a watch person, so having 2 would be pointless. i dont want to get him nice clothes, because he's steadily losing weight and i dont want to get him something that he wont be able to wear soon. seriously.. all his clothes are currently falling off.. hmm.. maybe i should get him a nice belt? but thats so BORING.
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
having the baby steadily suck all my brains out isnt helping any, either.
dad well... this one is really tricky. for two reasons. 1) he's jewish, and therefor doesnt celebrate christmas, but i know he's going to get us something, so if i dont get him anything, i feel horrid. 2) WHAT DO I GET HIM???????? im NOT getting him another harmonica. he has a million of the things and they all sound awful. and i cant think of anything else. UGH.
hubby well.. ive got him a couple movies, and a book... and i dont know what else to do. do i need to do anything else? if it was just me, id say it was fine, but this is stuff from me, critter, and the as-yet-unborn-spaceghost (because it was just too brilliant to pass up). which makes it seem like really nothing at all. and i dont know what else to get him. UGH. cant get him a nice watch, because he was given one by dad a couple months back, and isnt really a watch person, so having 2 would be pointless. i dont want to get him nice clothes, because he's steadily losing weight and i dont want to get him something that he wont be able to wear soon. seriously.. all his clothes are currently falling off.. hmm.. maybe i should get him a nice belt? but thats so BORING.
UUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
having the baby steadily suck all my brains out isnt helping any, either.
they grow up too fast
my son turned 4 in september. and already, he hardly needs me at all.
he can:
except when he wakes up in the middle of the night in tears because of a dream he cant remember, and nothing will comfort him except for mummy's cuddles.
he can:
- brush his own teeth
- wipe after using the toilet (YAY. one of my least favourite jobs)
- use the toilet on his own
- wash his hands WITH SOAP on his own
- climb into, and out of, the bathtub ON HIS OWN
- change the channel on the tv
- load the dvd player
- put away cutlery and crockery (except knives)
- wash dishes
- put away his clothes
- get dressed (including socks and shoes)
- draw a spaceship
- draw an elevator (!!!!)
- beat me at bowling on the nintendo wii
- race daddy in driving games on the wii
- write his own name
- recognise all letters, and the sounds that go with most of them
- almost read basic words like cat and dog (he read 'stop' a few weeks back, but then regressed)
- read numbers up to 99. he constantly tells me how much things at the shops cost - with 100% accuracy
- i cook his food and pour his drinks, but he grows like a weed and soon he'll be tall enough and strong enough that he'll be able to get his own drinks and find food in the fridge if he's hungry.
- i wash his clothes, but he knows what buttons to push to start the machine, so he really only needs me to put the laundry powder in, get the clothes out of the machine, and hang them up - hes not that tall yet. if we had a front loader, he'd only need me for the laundry powder, which is stored about 6 feet up, because he can hang things on the rack inside.
- i turn on the taps for his bath, because he hasnt figured out how to balance the heat yet.
- i change the sheets on his bed, but hes getting pretty good at that, only the corners give him trouble.
- i push the start button on the dvd remote, but he'll figure that out soon enough and he wont need me at all.
except when he wakes up in the middle of the night in tears because of a dream he cant remember, and nothing will comfort him except for mummy's cuddles.
Thursday 4 December 2008
the ultimate bob the builder
when barack obama won the US presidential election, a lot of my friends on facebook made comments about america being run by bob the builder. i didnt realise obama had been using bob's catch-phrase, but what disturbed me was that some people left comments to the effect of 'who?' not knowing who bob the builder was. i have a four year old son. i will never have that problem.
ive been thinking recently though, that before obama stole bob's catch-phrase, bob stole it from someone else.
sometimes things happen in our lives that we cannot comprehend. we cant understand the reason behind it. sometimes things go so wrong that we cant even begin to imagine how to put things straight.
but there is one who can, if we ask.
our lives dont always go according to plan. our plan that is. i didnt plan on being pregnant before i was 22, unmarried and half a world away from my family. to be honest, i didnt plan on being pregnant at all. ever. i looked at my life, at all the problems i had, at how i dealt with things, and decided i wasnt cut out to be a mother. i didnt want to inflict my insecurities and issues on some poor sweet little person who would look to me for everything. so i decided never to marry. someone had other plans for me.
someone knew exactly how my life would play out, before i was born. before my parents were born. before this world came into existence. someone knows what will happen to me in ten minutes, an hour, a week, a year, a decade... someone knows exactly what will happen to me and around me, for ever.
it might not be what i want, it might not necessarily be what He wants (sex before marriage = bad. still happened, and He knew it would), but it is what He knows. and when things go wrong in my life, when i am suffering, and scared, and dont know what to do, there is someone who does.
if there is one thing in this life that i am absolutely certain of, it is that when everything is broken and in my life is in pieces, there is someone i can call out to, who knows all my pain, and sorrow, and all my joy and gladness too. someone who is great beyond all reasoning, and who knows exactly how to set things straight.
can He fix it? yes, He can.
ive been thinking recently though, that before obama stole bob's catch-phrase, bob stole it from someone else.
sometimes things happen in our lives that we cannot comprehend. we cant understand the reason behind it. sometimes things go so wrong that we cant even begin to imagine how to put things straight.
but there is one who can, if we ask.
our lives dont always go according to plan. our plan that is. i didnt plan on being pregnant before i was 22, unmarried and half a world away from my family. to be honest, i didnt plan on being pregnant at all. ever. i looked at my life, at all the problems i had, at how i dealt with things, and decided i wasnt cut out to be a mother. i didnt want to inflict my insecurities and issues on some poor sweet little person who would look to me for everything. so i decided never to marry. someone had other plans for me.
someone knew exactly how my life would play out, before i was born. before my parents were born. before this world came into existence. someone knows what will happen to me in ten minutes, an hour, a week, a year, a decade... someone knows exactly what will happen to me and around me, for ever.
it might not be what i want, it might not necessarily be what He wants (sex before marriage = bad. still happened, and He knew it would), but it is what He knows. and when things go wrong in my life, when i am suffering, and scared, and dont know what to do, there is someone who does.
if there is one thing in this life that i am absolutely certain of, it is that when everything is broken and in my life is in pieces, there is someone i can call out to, who knows all my pain, and sorrow, and all my joy and gladness too. someone who is great beyond all reasoning, and who knows exactly how to set things straight.
can He fix it? yes, He can.
Tuesday 2 December 2008
gibber gibber gibber
is it the moon? not a full moon tonight.. speaking of which, did anyone see the smiley face last night? we didnt. it was too cloudy. saw some super bright stars the day before that we assume were the ones that were going to be it but hey..
so anyway, back to the point. TOTALLY in a mood and i dont know why. thought it might be the moon... but see above. any ideas? not had any excessive amounts of sugar.. cant think of anything that would do this.
oh well. hyperactivity for the win.
so anyway, back to the point. TOTALLY in a mood and i dont know why. thought it might be the moon... but see above. any ideas? not had any excessive amounts of sugar.. cant think of anything that would do this.
oh well. hyperactivity for the win.
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